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SO I
THOUGHT
by S. Marie
Hugo
Dedicated to Mary Grace Hugo.
My mother, a women of strength
whom I became close friends with after the suicide of my father. She died at the
age of 61 of lung complications on April 27th, 1993, nine years after the death
of my father, Arthur.
SO I THOUGHT
Mom grieved as
she
erased all memory of
you from her life.
So I
thought.
Frilly feminine wallpaper
now hangs on your
bathroom
walls.
Dresser drawers stay empty.
Living room walls no longer
hold
your face,
keeping you out of her sight.
So I thought.
Your
unexpected death
caused her deep affliction
never being able to
speak
your name again.
So I thought.
As Mom lay comatose
I
whispered,
Daddy's waiting for you now,
he still loves you.
As she
wrestled and moaned
it made me doubt the words
I just uttered.
So
I thought.
On the eve of Mom's
eternal journey,
a feeling of peace
and
contentment overflowed
inside of me.
I no longer have to
doubt
Mom's love for you.
Longing to hold her close
I search
through her purse,
touching her trinkets and
smelling her
scent.
Fondling her wallet
it softly opens.
My eyes find
you.
She held you closer than
a picture on a wall.
Daddy, you
may now hold Mom
forever,
as she always held you.
1999 S. Marie Hugo
About S. Marie Hugo
S. Marie Hugo, Author
of TENDERPAIN..After Daddy's Suicide..a poetic
journey, (ISBN 0-9704463-0-6) a poetic
memoir of a father's life and tragic death seen through the eyes of his
daughter. This compelling collection of verses will show a satisfying blend of
strength, hope, survival and love throughout the authors healing journey. S.
Marie lives in a city once called a village, Essexville, Michigan. The craft she
calls her most loved passion is writing children's picture books. Visit
Marie Hugo at Hugo's Haven.
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